February 6, 2010
Middle of Nowhere
Posted by davewhitley1986 under Uncategorized | Tags: 2008, Bordes Kenny, Boudreaux Allen, Chatwin Justin, Clements Kyle Russell, Comedy, Daquin Carlo, Drama, Haze William, Kepper Kennon, Leggio Jerry, Maggiore Randy, Martin Scott A., Wozniak Michael, Yelchin Anton |No Comments
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IMDB rating: 7.10 Plot: An irresponsible mother blows her eldest daughter’s college fund on her youngest daughter’s modeling campaign. |
Actors: Yelchin Anton,Chatwin Justin,Martin Scott A.,Wozniak Michael,Bordes Kenny,Boudreaux Allen,Clements Kyle Russell,Daquin Carlo,Daquin Carlo,Haze William,Kepper Kennon,Leggio Jerry,Maggiore Randy,Comedy,Drama,
I am 20, bored with life, and am having trouble finding things that keep my interest. Any advice?
I am a sophomore in college and find my current University to be incredibly boring. Is is well respected but is in the middle of nowhere. I have little in common with the majority of the people as all they do is drink and party. I have some money and can do almost anything in the 20-100$ range as i choose but their is nothing to do. I have tried online poker, but all it does is annoy me. When i win i feel nothing, when i lose i feel angry but not enough to care. My family is incredibly apathetic and my Sister is mildly insane. I am involved in certain organizations but am beginning to not find them entertaining as it is the same thing week after week and nothing ever changes. I have tried writing, acting, clubbing, collecting random things, and partying, yet none of them seem to make me happy. I enrolled myself in difficult classes hoping they would keep my interest yet all they seem to do is make me even more bored. I understand the work and find it somewhat easy but all of it seems like a waste of time. My family does not encourage me to do anything and does not push me in any direction and i am at a loss for ideas. I am 20 years old and am out of ideas for things to do. I have traveled the world and seen things most never see in their life before the age of 18. I do not have a girlfriend and have trouble getting intimate with people in general. I am straight however some mental component causes me to be restrictive with my emotions and i cannot seem to break loose from the habit. I recently tried to join a Frat, hoping it would peak my interests and bring me out of this rut, however they declined my admission as they feel I am too busy with work and wouldn’t want to ruin my academic record. I am family friends with some of them and i think that may have played a factor. Now im slightly depressed an at a loss for ideas. I could party tomorrow, but i see no point. I could go to New York, but i have no one to go with and it would be a waste of money as i would only be their for 1 day. I could go to Boston, but again i have no one to go with.
I have done so much, yet I feel so little happiness or sense of fulfillment. Any advice?
Please note: I only have no one to go with as no one i am friends with has the time or money to do things. I am at a loss for ideas.
People like to hang out with me but view me as the serious type who likes to study and read. Kind of as an authority figure, which I don’t really want yet can do nothing about as it has to do with my physical build of very tall with an intelligent face. People find me to be safe and trustworthy yet not the type to want to go to parties. When I told people that i drink alcohol they gasped in astonishment and asked me if i was joking as they pinned me the straight edge, general type. I don’t know what to do.
To clarify, I tried to join a frat to meet new people that could possibly help me be more sociable and provide me with ideas of things to do for fun. It is a cultural group so i was hoping to meet like minded people from a similar background.
Congratulations, you’re a part of the adult world. Just get on with life, this is what it’s all about I’m afraid. You sound like the type who needs a challenge, which is tough, it’s tough to find a true challenge.
ballooner | Feb 04, 2010
you sound alittle…….nerdy…..let loose and stop being so uptight..
nunya | Feb 04, 2010
My son went through a very similar thing only at 19 and he’s gay but still. He spent a summer in europe and though he had so much at his fingertips he was bored. He hated the school that he was at and like yours it was in the middle of no where. At the time me, his sister and father were apathetic and thought it was just a bout of college-transition depression. My daughter was also dealing with anorexia (like your insane sister). Intimacy is hard for everyone so you are NOT alone there.
Just remember life IS worth living, if you begin to think other wise seek medical help immediately. My son attributed his depression due to his being in the closet and though coming out would help him, it didn’t. He then transferred to a school in a big city, that didn’t help either. I then became fed up with his almost comatose attitude and realized he needed to talk to someone. He spoke to a therapist for a year and it helped him (as did his first serious relationship with a man). He eventually quit seeing the therapist after a year. I know people say it but young people go through a lot and DO have issues that need to be talked about and sometimes parents just aren’t enough.
Some people just don’t like college, you’re not alone there either. My son managed to enjoy his last years and a half but over all it was a bad experience for him. You will find your way out of this rut and it will only make you stronger.
Felicia | Feb 04, 2010
Very simple. Get a relatively good-looking girl. Get laid. Feel better. Smile.
Bleamed11 | Feb 04, 2010
Yo man, I’m the exact same way. Seriously, 20 years old..in college..no friends. I know how you feel. So basically you just mentioned a gigantic list of your reasoning and justification for being unhappy. Seems as though you try to fit in..by trying to join a frat and what not…which is all irrelevant. Your sense of fulfillment with life isn’t just going to miraculously dawn on you like a lightbulb. Obviously you’re an intelligent human being…but maybe your focus isn’t too strong. If you’re the guy who is "serious type who likes to study and read"..then by all means sit around and read all day. The main goal is finding what makes you happy in life and having the will to apply yourself to that focus. Quit being the guy who everybody else would love..and be yourself.
Miketothefish | Feb 04, 2010